Be patient and never rush love

Well,a lot of my friends knew that i m a person that sincere to love....Just like now,i still love this person name T....We been together before couple of moment but end up our relationship broke up...i feel totally devastated that time
Anyhow she is my first love ^^. As i read a article,noticed me that first love is always sweetest and most memorable....I was told by a lot of my friends *even T also* to stop thinking about her but i cant made it....Plus i ever being scolded by someone *This is how the person scolded me (Stupid la you...Come on la,in this world plenty of girls still exist....Without her,will u die???) Fuh,like being torture by this person....But still useless,i still remain as a person that sincere to love...Haha
I always wanted to call T but i don dare....Whenever i click dial her hp,my heart start throb rapidly but end up i cancel it....Swt
U know what,she started to play Msn and Friendster....The photo that she uploaded attracted me...zzzz. One day i saw her comment,a guy asking her whether she still a virgin or not...I was damn angry with myself....Haix What to do??? I cant even say or scold her....i know u all will say me back *shen me nian dai liao cannot ask meh Open minded abit la* zzzz...Maybe i cant take it!!
By the way i m glad that she willing to chat with me at Msn but when i asked her,you busy is it? She will said reply friendster comment...But then i told her,you slowly sent bah...don wan disturb you....I damn stupid lor...Wanna to chat with her but told her not to disturb her....
As my friend HH said loving someone doesnt mean compulsary to kao her...As long as you love her with your heart....Long but not lease,i should be patient and never rush love....I love you T ^^